Still things to be thankful For

After I blogged yesterday, I read a chapter on loss in Joyce Meyer's book titled "Living Beyond Your Feelings".  She had interviewed a friend  on how she coped after she  lost her husband of ten years. Her response was

1. Just keep breathing
2. Don't make any big decisions or changes for a year
3. Cry
4. Give yourself a break
5. Mind your health
6. Find someone you can talk to
7. No regrets
8. Remind yourself that you won't always feel this way
9. Write about it
10. Forgive
11. Remember that there are still things to be thankful for.

Things to be thankful for as I journey towards Jaden's first birthday

• I am thankful that I conceived and carried you for 9months
• I am thankful that we bonded much during those nine months. You kicked and moved alot
• I am thankful that you were born alive, you cried at birth
• I am thankful that you were healthy and alert when you were born
• I am thankful that when you arrived we shared that precious moment with your daddy in tears.We were so glad that you had finally joined the Karega family
• I am thankful that you breastfed,our eyes met and we fell in love
• I am thankful that you were so peaceful,calm and alert.You were in hurry to grow boy, your nexk firmed and when we held you in upright position you tried to stand.
• I am thankful that you smiled alot and didn't like bathing.
• I am so thankful that you met your big sister and she fell in love with you. You made her one big proud big sister. She talked about you in school over and over again. She was proud to say her baby brother is called JJ.
• I am so thankful that Samara held you in her arms, she kissed you every morning before she went to school and when she came back. She was keen to help in disposing your diapers. Am so glad you both met.For that I am very very grateful. I am also grateful because I with the both of you, I was mum of two.Made me very very proud.
• I am so thankful that you met all the people that are precious to us. I look back at how God marshaled family and friends together in that month you were born and am so glad they all met you.Aunt Shiru was there from Mombasa,cucu kept coming over and over again, she actually was at the hospital afew minutes after you were born. Tata and Uncle Chris kept looking for an excuse to come see you. Aunt Carol and Aunt Angie came and spent time with you.Auntie Monica was there from the beginning and carried you willing into the house and stayed on with us to help us all settle in.No one wanted to wait a month they just wanted to come see you my love. Bobo had the privilege of meeting you during her midterm. Many traveled from far to come welcome you to our family. You are so special to us.

I realise that my list would go on and on but I shall leave it at that today.  To sum it up, a few weeks ago ,I went to see a doctor and she asked me how many children have you given birth to? I said two. She asked, have you ever miscarriaged? I said no and right there I knew that I had so much to be thankful for. I was privileged to have bore two live children.

Thank you Lord for allowing me to meet my children and take them home. I am a blessed woman indeed. My heart doesn't feel too strong.I miss you Jaden dearly but am one thankful mummy today even in the midst of my tears.