Am coming to understand that grieving is a journey that one can't quite say that they have arrived at a NO GRIEF destination. I am so glad that I do not cry every day, many days go by now without thinking about Jaden or looking at his picture. I am grateful now that not all mornings do not have to be prayer requests to get strength and courage to get out of bed& face the day. Indeed things are brighter now, more laughter, peace and contentment are my portion. Yet, am not at that point where I can say am healed. I think of a wound/scar. At times we maybe deceived by looking at the top scar and think that all is well, yet full recovery is required on the inside. That is where I am at,a place where I ackowledge, I am not fully healed and its ok. Of course at times I beat myself about feeling down but what's the rush? Healing comes from God and takes time. I have come across ladies who lost there babies 12years ago and when the thought crosses their minds, the pain is fresh.