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Furahiday

I love Fridays. Just the idea that , the weekend is here and we have time to catch up with family and get some rest makes it worth every moment. This morning, I realised that am so happy and am excited about that. The joy in my heart is overwhelming and despite afew disappointments, I purposed that no one would spoil my day . For the past 2 weeks, she has been asking whether we are going to church today..it is abit hard to explain to my 3year old that Sunday is after a number of days especially after she hasnt gone to church for 2 back to back Sundays.  Today, she declared that she does not love school but loves Church, Impala(because they go for swimming and sliding on Fridays with her school) and slides. I almost panicked but my beloved interpreted that she doesnt mean she doesn't like school, she just  listed what bring lots of fun to her life and my heart settled.I am also looking forward to Sunday to take baby gal to church. Guess she loves Sunday school and the fact that sh

This Day

Today, my heart feels quite at peace and is smiling. Am so thankful for my family-my one in a million husband and Samara. The last two days, I have been so grateful for them and hanging out together, sharing a meal has just warmed my heart. It may sound normal but for me it was quite special. Wednesday evening, we went to a food court in one shopping mall and shared a simple meal together and it was quite refreshing. I knew it meant alot to baby gal because as I put her to be, she said thank you God for allowing us to go to the supermarket. She continuously said thank you to her daddy and it touched my heart. Yesterday was Valentines day and I was telling a friend, so many hearts are broken on this day with many expectations from one's loved one. Well, I only looked forward to our 4p.m. appointment because we had scheduled a meeting with our pediatric cardiologist just to ask a few questions . As I asked the questions, the doctor kept reiterating that it was not our fault or an

Simple Faith

Dear Sylvia Here is your word for today: Verse:         James 1:6 'When you ask for something, don't have any doubts. A person who has doubts is like a wave that is blown by the wind and tossed by the sea.' - We all have areas in our lives where we are trusting God for an answer. - The key is to ask, have faith and not doubt. - Doubt undermines and erodes our faith. - God undertakes to meet our needs as we reach out to Him in simple faith. PRAYER:  Lord, forgive me for doubting Your ability and faithfulness. I will ask, believing that You will answer and I will not give in to doubt and fear. Amen.

Life's Irony

We have a kids furniture and accessories store  www.sasimpressions.com and my favourite clients these far are new or first time expectant mums. I think being pregnant and being blessed with a baby is such a unique experience and priceless.It is amazing how the many mums I meet have fears, they wonder whether they will handle labour well and whether they will be good mums to their babies. As we sit and chat, I share my experiences and how it is a wonderful journey. Today, I have spent almost an hour with a mum to be, showing her the various items we have for new borns and as we chat, she says how fearful she is of failing to be a good mum because she naturally is not a great fan of kids. I went ahead to tell her how God provides grace and how her natural instincts come in to love and protect her child. These days ,I find myself in that awkward position of sharing my experience but not sharing that I had a son . In my mind as I talk, I know I have gone through this twice but I in my s

How I Wish

How I wish ,I was going to collect Baby J's birth certifcate. That queue opposite  NSSF building was so busy with many women carrying their babies and husbands stating their wives were in hospital with their babies and were applying for birth certificates I had both the birth notification which you get in hospital to use to apply for birth certificate. I also had the burial permit which you use to apply for the death certificate. Someone needs to remind me why you need a death certificate for your baby again?. But even at the customer service table it felt so lonely, my form was yellow while everybody else was different. I filled it and asked which counter I should go to and the guy said counter 7. Counter 6 was next to my counter and was so busy..counter 7 the attendant had even walked away and I and another gentleman who joined me later stood there for a while with our death certificate application forms..Life is so ironical..Finally got assisted and I was told to go back on Th

3 Months Already

I can’t believe it has been 3 months since I laid my eyes on my baby and held him. Where have the days gone too, at times I do not want the days to pass by because the more the days go the further the memories I hang on too become a distant memory . I do not want to forget your kiss, your smell, your touch and cry Jaden. Such little memories to hold on to, it is unbelievable.Yet am thankful. I have talked to mums who did not get to have any memories with their babies and for that dear Lord I say thank you. I have been well, actually started counseling sessions at Amani Centre, I have done 1 session so far and that day I thought I was strong in the morning, only to go for the session and narrate what happened to baby and I cried my eyes out. The 1 hour didn’t feel enough and I felt like I would cry a bucket when I got to the car but I didn’t. Instead I chose to go to the grave in Lang’ata  Cemetery but still I could not connect with it and left after a few minutes. Since then, my