My Life

The boy is 17months today. He has totally grown. Yesterday,he was bought a ball, a big one. I have never seen Nate hang on to an item like that, he would hold it with one hand and play with the other. I guess it was very dear to him.

Yesterday we attended baby girl's Christmas Concert in school. I had asked her what her role will be and she said she was the narrator of the Christmas story and I laughed. I told her am so proud of her and that I laughed because when we did the Christmas story when I was in nursery, I was no where near the narrator I was a masked sheep. We had a good laugh that day as we drove home. I thought to myself, how life has changed and how we need to provide our kids with opportunities to learn and build their confidence.We need to applaud our kids, tell them how beautiful they are, tell them how talented they are. Let them grow up knowing their strengths and areas they need to improve. That is my heart's desire for our kids. Let them be exposed to life's opportunities. Samara turns 6 in January and is reading well and communicates very articulately in English. When I was her age, we had just moved to Nairobi and the language I knew best was Kiswahili and I was just lea

Nate has really grown. Never in my mind did I think I would write how he has tantrums, serious ones which he drops himself on the floor, cries alot and very clear about what he wants. So the other day, we are sitted and he decides to drop his wipes and diaper on the carpet. I request him to pick them up and give me and he throws a fit and goes in full blown crying.So he tries to run to his aunty and I tell her no, he needs to learn to obey. All this time he is charged up and really crying and tries to get refuge with Samara and I tell her no he has to learn to obey. The young guy cried and cried. So I allowed him to keep quiet and reminded them that the diaper and wipes are for him to pick. Do you know he would stroll by them deliberately and when you tell him to pick he would say NO and even shake his finger to emphasise his no. I just thought to myself indeed folly is in the heart and the rod is needed to take it away. After a while , I asked him to pick and give to me he refused

The month of October and November are such bitter sweet months for my tender heart. October, we celebrate so so much..we have our wedding anniversary, celebrate Samara's successful heart surgery that was done many years ago, celebrate Jaden's birth and celebrate our business anniversary i November. Yet in same breath, I need extra  extra grace and strength from God to overcome the underlying emotions of missing Jaden. He features so much on my head and in my heart during this season because he was born in October and rested in November. Many questions ran in my mind,many mixed emotions I feel not all the time but sometimes and I acknowledge that God takes me through each day. I miss you Jaden so much.

How time flies.Three years today,Jaden you came into our lives.Such joy we had and our titles changed to mum of two,mum to girl and boy and Samara became big sister. You were our first boy and we thankful for you.Have a blast in heavenand always kno that we love you and fonderly remember you Kisses to you my bo Love Alway Mum