My Life

 Our 10year old is a creative. The things she does, amaze us. Look what she compiled this morning, sweet memories of my 40th birthday. How can I enhance this talent?It is graphic design, to fashion design, to photography to music and dance. Any leads and mentors are welcome. 

 What a beautiful day this was. We agreed to introduce the children to Jaden because 2weeks ago I had the opportunity to share about loss on TV and on same week, I had a zoom session sharing on our marriage journey and loss. I did the zoom from our home and was fearful that Nate would stumble into our story of loss before we tell him yet we strive to be the first voice and to process issues together. Baby girl was young too and we talked about Jaden but after Nate was born and a bit older, we never discussed despite her being tempted once to tell Nate about Jaden and I told her he wasn't ready then. I was blessed that my beloved was in agreement that it's time and day was today.   Jaden passed on when Samara was 2years 11 months on November 10th,2012 and of course Nate was born 2years later. We got the photo album that we have of Jaden, a toy car I kept and a portrait that we used for his funeral. We didn't know how to start and after dinner, Alex in his wisdom (a God idea)

Last night as I prepared to share on loss& grief in relation to marriage, I was overwhelmed by emotions. Through our pain, we are able to reach out to other hurting families. Indeed God's ways are not ours but if we can just b used  as vessels of honour for God's kingdom then it's not wasted the pain is not wasted.

The past week has been a different kind. I have been privileged to share our loss journey on TV and this morning on 'a peek into a grieving heart platform. This song beauty for ashes seems to sum it all up.