My Life

Whoever said grieving is a journey was so right. Jaden, I have missed you, I have cried for you this 2 months from your birthday. I wanted you here with me and with us. Your sister and brother shower me with much love, especially when am down somehow the letters under the pillow from Samara and the hugs and kisses from Nate are so so many. Today it is 4 years since that day you went to be with the Lord. I pray for strength for today and the days ahead. I love you much my baby until we meet I hide you in my heart forever.

My dearest Jaden, I can't believe that October is here again and October 13th you would have been 4 years . Time sure does fly baby and hope you having a blast in Heaven. The other day, your big sister Samara asked when is your birthday. I found that question strange but was proud to say October 13th and am sure she marked the date in her heart. I am so happy that through you Jaden, I became a mum of 2. Through you coming into our lives, my eyes were opened to eternity and a closer relationship with God. I miss you most times. The other day, I met a boy who is almost 4years and for a moment I imagined that you were that size. Oh baby boy, am so thankful to God for all and I promise to celebrate your 4th birthday in my own way. We love you and we still love October, its my best month.

We are in June and I have only blogged twice? So much has happened where do I start? Nate turned two, he started playschool and says its a lot of fun but the mornings he cries when we reach school. It breaks my heart but he calms down and enjoys his day. He is going three times a week and it just hit me that I no longer have a baby in my house. I will share a few pictures just to summarise what we have been upto but this far God has been faithful to me and mine.

I have been thinking about loss the past few weeks and its amazing how loss is a such a personal journey. Loss can be of a loved one or even loss of a job, a relationship. Loss comes in many faces. No matter how deeply people love you, the journey of loss is traveled by an individual. However, that individual can either accept or refuse to be comforted by God and those in their lives. I have shared 2 songs in my timeline on facebook Tell Your Heart To Beat Again( https://youtu.be/F77v41jbOYs )& I Will Trust In You( https://youtu.be/n_aVFVveJNs)   that express how life happens and things don't always go as we would love them to be but yet we must trust in God because He is the only constant, even when we do not know how to take the next step when life happens.  The other song talks about choosing to breathe again. Yes, your heart can beat again after loss, after we are hit hard, so hard, we can arise and breath again because the God we serve is a good God

We were invited for a birthday party last Friday and we had a great time. At least I can upload this pictures unlike the audio referred to in the other blog, Enjoy

I am totally surprised that the last I wrote was in November. Allow me to send greetings your way for the New Year. 2016 will be an amazingly great year and am looking forward to it. Yesterday, 4th February 2016 Alex and I had the privilege to go to Radio 316 and share our story and journey of life after the loss of Jaden. A friend was gracious enough to dub the show live and that allowed us to share with many and also allowed us to listen to ourselves and see how far the Lord has brought us. I am not able to upload the audio here We are thankful