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Sovereignity of God

Two weeks ago, one of my mum's sisters passed on. It was difficult for the whole family because she had been sick for  a very short time and the last two times we had gone to visit us in hospital she was fine. Infact she asked us, the second time why we had gone to see her yet we were there the Sunday before? Little did we know that was our last time together.

The day before her funeral, we were at the mortuary and her youngest daughter got to see her. Of course we were all overcome with grief but my cousin really called out to her mum and asked many questions. She asked her mum, why she had left her and whom has she left  her with? The question that stunned me most was ' where have we gone wrong?'. Am not sure whether she was asking her mum or asking God. But I guess death is not some form of punishment from God. God loves us so much and He doesn't delight in inflicting pain. We tried to answer her questions as she cried and reassured her that God was there with her and we as a family would stand with her, her brother and sister.

I must admit it has been a hard season and is still hard but we shall get better.God has a way of healing our broken hearts with time. But all in all I believe God is sovereign and He is Lord. He has given us breath and determines for how long we can breath. I watched my aunt lie there still, even as my cousin called out to her, and I acknowledged that God is real and He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. We may have wanted my aunt to live on and stay with us but God knew that  on 24th August she would breath her last and that we would moan for her. Yet again, He knows that we are strong when we lean on Him for He is our pillar of strength, great comforter and provider.

So this day dear Lord, I say thank you for in everything we shall not curse you but we shall praise you and forever remain in you, for in you we have life, whether we are alive or rested in you. Thank you that you love us so much and that you have not left us. Thank you for standing so close, much closer thank a brother and holding our hands, strengthening our hearts and wiping away our tears. You are sovereign and I say thank you for loaning auntie to us for the years we had her with us. Amen

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