My Life

Happy 35th year to me.The night before my birthday,I could hardly sleep .I was anxious at the thought that 40 is so close yet on the day,I was at peace .My wise friend Carol said,with this age,one doesn't fret much,they seem to be established in their relationships Am blessed and counting my blessings over and over again.Let me share a few pictures.

I learn alot from Samara. Many times I have admired her courage and her way of looking at life. Quite innocent and speaks what is in her heart. At the beginning of the new term, after picking her from school, Samara blurted out that they have a new boy in class and he is called Jaden. So she went ahead to say that now she knew 2 Jadens..her brother in heaven and the new boy in class. I told her that is true and we got home. I quickly wrote a text message to her class teacher explaining to her that she may hear Samara talk about her brother Jaden now that she has a classmate with same name. For sure, she did tell the teacher that she has a brother called Jaden and he fell sick and went to heaven and that she loved him so so much. I initially worried about how she will cope in class with the new boy and it has been over a month since the new term began and believe me she has never mentioned the boy again. As I reflected on that experience, I thanked God for allowing us to talk openly a...

Praise the Lord. Nate has taken his full confident steps back and forth this evening. 11th June 2015. What a gift, what a milestone. Its really really warmed our hearts. He has walked very very fast to daddy, to Samara and to me. I have just put him to bed and he gave me that cute smile and am one blessed mum. It is such a gift from God..milestones.

Oh I have been trying to log onto the blog but everytime I do ,I am not lucky enough. We are 1 Year now and we are super excited. Nate turned 1 on 26th May and it looked too short, it seemed like he'd been born just the other day and now 1year? We are grateful for Jabulani, he is such a joy to us. He is musical, he even poses to dance, claps his hands, waves them up in the air when he feels he wants to express himself more. They are lovely friends with big sister Samara and what a joy. So we celebrated his birthday just the 4 of us, in our own small way. Samara was disappointed that there was no cake but we had a great time together. A few pictures below, share in our joy. Blessings Sly

A few days ago as we had breakfast we had the below conversation with Samara Samara:Mummy, tata is the what born? Me: She is the first born like you. Samara: My cousins are many, they are 3 children Me:Yes Samara, even you guys were three..you, Jaden and Nate Samara:Yes, I am the first born, then Jaden then Nate is the last born. Me:Yes Samara Jaden seems to have impacted Samara despite her tender age then.She just had a very strong bond and deep love for him which warms my heart.  The past month I have heard so much of maternal and newborn death that it has made me miss my boy. Yesterday morning, I drove to Langata Cemetery and I was tears before I even got there, I haven't been there since November 2014. I just had this missing in my heart of him and when I got there I cried and cried some more . Someone asked me the other day when I told her I lost a son before, she said that it must be better now? I said am not sure it gets better, the missing and vacuum never get fi...

I have been challenged to turn my prayer time for the next few weeks to thanksgiving and not request sessions. And so I started to list what I am thankful for and this week am so thankful for my family. I thank God for Alex, Samara, Jaden and Nate. Yes through each one of them I have learned to love and be loved. I have learned more about God through each one of them. How timely could these pictures be? Samara loves the camera,we saw her come alive and pose and pose and pose, it was amazing to watch her.Nate was apiece of work, to keep him still, he loved the entertaining and so glad we captured some of his cute faces.  I received these photos this afternoon and I look at them and my heart bursts into song and thankfulness. I love you Lord for blessing me with these amazing people.They are priceless. Love you guys so so much this day.

Children grow to fast. I remember after Samara’s open heart surgery, my greatest concern was the scar.I asked and read whether it would ever go away as baby grows etc and I sincerely hoped that it would disappear completely. The big question came on Friday evening as she ate dinner while I fed Nate. "Mummy, will this line go away?". I must admit I was taken aback but I told her to finish her food then we could talk. As we showered Nate, I explained to her that the scar won’t go away because it reminds us of how God loves her .I told her when she was young, we went to India in a plane  to a hospital and that’s how the scar came about as the doctor treated her. After that, she gave me her own theory that, it’s a boy in her former school who rolled something on their chests (I had heard that theory from her aunt as she had told her cousins when she was much younger) but I explained that’s not true. Well for now, she was content and she didn't dig deeper and I pray t...