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My Bitter Sweet Year

Yesterday in Church,the service host asked how 2025 has been? He asked whether it has been a great year or it's  a year one would rather forget because of the challenges encountered?

Thankfully my 2025 has been a good year but it reminded me of 2012,a year that was bitter sweet.One I would have liked to delete and forget yet there in lies sweet memories of Jaden.

2012 had been difficult ,dramatic with many transitions.When I look back sometimes I wonder if I was mildly depressed yet I was hopeful.I was looking forward to October when baby boy would finally be born and that would make the year better.Jaden was born on the 13th October 2012 and I was a happy mother of two for at least 2 weeks.Then came visits to the doctor, a 'simple' closed heart surgery,two days after surgery on 10th November my baby passed on and a burial on 13th November 2012 .



Holiday seasons are difficult for a grieving person,family or community.There is nothing merry about Christmas.Then came Crossover; I sobbed ,the year had been so hard yet I did not want to leave my baby and memories of him behind.I wanted time to stop.I didn't want to crossover to 2013.The promises of a new beginning or fresh start in the new year sound far fetched.

Today,it's been 13 years since Jaden rested.There have been many crossovers and I continue to carry him in my heart.

In 2025,there have been many losses on personal,family and national levels.As we go into the holiday season,let's be kind and show compassion.

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