A new routine that am loving and appreciating is when our daughter comes to my bed, lies besides me and asks questions and am able to share my own childhood experiences on the same or she would read to me a story she likes. Now, our soon to be 6year old is a hugger and loves cuddles before going to bed. So it's been great bonding before bed despite being locked in together all day.
Yesterday, I had both of them with me, each on my side and I prayed over them as they snoozed away. I found myself thinking about their personalities, the differences and similarities and I wondered how Jaden would be? Would he be calm like his sister or energetic like his brother? Who he have been strong willed as they are? What would he have loved to do before sleeping? Would he have appreciated some 'me time' with mummy, a cuddle or tickle from mummy? I lingered there for a short while, said a prayer, one of thanksgiving for the three babies, I have been blessed with.
You see despite the loss, he is still my son and it's okay to have such thoughts. Yes, our arms are empty but our hearts are full of love and it's okay.
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