Should I say we are 22 weeks pregnant now or start with Happy New Year Greetings. It is an amazing year, I can feel it in my bones and am looking forward to embracing what God has in store for me. Baby gal turned 4 on 7th January am everyday we are amazed at how much she has grown into a small lady. She loves high heels, she loves order, she keeps rearranging our shoes neatly and last night even the clothes in the laundry basket needed to look neat. She is so much like her daddy. Samara reminds me of God's faithfulness even in my low days.
Well, we were scheduled for the normal monthly checkups on Friday and we patiently waited for a particular antenatal doctor. I was excited about my weight gain this far.When we finally walked into the office, she asked for our past history i.e have we had other children beyond this pregnancy and she wanted to know everything. Narrating how each pregnancy was and the outcomes of the ASD& narrowing of the aorta was not funny for me and I almost reached out for my handkerchief. This far our walk has been of faith and I thank God for our cardiologist who has all through encouraged us to put our hope and trust in God. Well our new doctor said with the past history of the 2 babies with cardic issues there is a 10% chance that baby 3 may have something too. Heartbreaking is not the word that can describe what I felt but you apply faith and I told her we trust that all shall be well. She did the routine check and sent us for 2 scans. One was for fetal echo(heart scan for the baby) and the normal 22-24weeks scan done to check for abnormalities and the sex of the baby which we should take back in our next appointment.
I thought I would leave there with information on baby's gender but we have to wait a little bit longer until the scan are done in the course of this week. So I cried from the hospital all the way home. I was a sad mummy and kept asking Lord why us?Thank God for Alex who refused to listen to the report of the doctor and said he would stand on the word of the lord. We got home and I just went to bed,but he came and prayed and decreed that all shall be well this time.
This morning we went to our cardiologist(bless this man).God sent him our way for a reason.He has been our family doctor and always listens and advices like a father.We told him we had been sent for the fetal echo and he advised against it because at 22 weeks, baby's heart is still forming and you would see very little. He also emphasised as he has many times before, that doing a scan would just increase the anxiety because, once you know that your baby has a defect, would you terminate? Are you God to decide that you would end the baby's life? He encouraged us to continue walking in faith in our God because He is a miracle worker. He is the creator and He knows the baby inside out and doctors are just but humans. I guess that is what I needed on this Monday morning because I was a sad girl.
I keep wondering Lord, this walk of faith for how long..I look forward to Wednesday, to see baby and know the gender God willing. But most of all, I look forward to end of May, where I know we shall sing songs of praise to our God. For now we keep praying and trusting, for now, I look at Samara and am reminded over and over of God's faithfulness even when my hope seems to dwindle away.
We keep the faith...through praise and prayer.
Baby Gal n Mum modeling some new outfits
Well, we were scheduled for the normal monthly checkups on Friday and we patiently waited for a particular antenatal doctor. I was excited about my weight gain this far.When we finally walked into the office, she asked for our past history i.e have we had other children beyond this pregnancy and she wanted to know everything. Narrating how each pregnancy was and the outcomes of the ASD& narrowing of the aorta was not funny for me and I almost reached out for my handkerchief. This far our walk has been of faith and I thank God for our cardiologist who has all through encouraged us to put our hope and trust in God. Well our new doctor said with the past history of the 2 babies with cardic issues there is a 10% chance that baby 3 may have something too. Heartbreaking is not the word that can describe what I felt but you apply faith and I told her we trust that all shall be well. She did the routine check and sent us for 2 scans. One was for fetal echo(heart scan for the baby) and the normal 22-24weeks scan done to check for abnormalities and the sex of the baby which we should take back in our next appointment.
I thought I would leave there with information on baby's gender but we have to wait a little bit longer until the scan are done in the course of this week. So I cried from the hospital all the way home. I was a sad mummy and kept asking Lord why us?Thank God for Alex who refused to listen to the report of the doctor and said he would stand on the word of the lord. We got home and I just went to bed,but he came and prayed and decreed that all shall be well this time.
This morning we went to our cardiologist(bless this man).God sent him our way for a reason.He has been our family doctor and always listens and advices like a father.We told him we had been sent for the fetal echo and he advised against it because at 22 weeks, baby's heart is still forming and you would see very little. He also emphasised as he has many times before, that doing a scan would just increase the anxiety because, once you know that your baby has a defect, would you terminate? Are you God to decide that you would end the baby's life? He encouraged us to continue walking in faith in our God because He is a miracle worker. He is the creator and He knows the baby inside out and doctors are just but humans. I guess that is what I needed on this Monday morning because I was a sad girl.
I keep wondering Lord, this walk of faith for how long..I look forward to Wednesday, to see baby and know the gender God willing. But most of all, I look forward to end of May, where I know we shall sing songs of praise to our God. For now we keep praying and trusting, for now, I look at Samara and am reminded over and over of God's faithfulness even when my hope seems to dwindle away.
We keep the faith...through praise and prayer.
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