My Life

Tuesday evening, I had a very long chat with a friend of mine. She said she has been seeing my updates on facebook and has been wondering how can she contribute or what more can she tell me that others haven't said, regarding the loss of our son.  She had fears that firstly, she doesn't know what kind of state we are in if she were to call and was surprised that we were laughing, she also  has been feeling very guilty that she has never managed to come see me after the funeral yet my mum has pleaded with our friends during the funeral gatherings to stay by our side when the "show is over" because people always disappear after the funeral and the family is left alone. As we talked, I felt so sad for her because no matter how much she loves me, she has her life, career, family and life in general and realistically speaking life has to move on. Despite loving me so so much, she can not afford to talk to me daily, or visit me daily? She can not stop the tears and pain t...

I read this article this morning from Todays Christian Woman  http://www.todayschristianwoman.com/articles/2013/april/power-of-forgiveness-in-marriage.html?utm_source=todayschristianwoman&utm_medium=Newsletter&utm_term=11631401&utm_content=168090270&utm_campaign=2013&start=4 "What miserable comforters you are!" She never actually uttered those words, but her eyes shouted them from behind her tears. She had just laid her soul bare telling us about her recent miscarriage. The silence afterward lasted only a moment before those around her erupted in a chorus of "Trust God—everything will work out," and immediate quotations of Jeremiah 29:11 . I really wanted to cheer up my brokenhearted friend, but how could I avoid adding to the chorus of trite clichés? I had no idea what to do or say. Ever been there? When we see someone downcast, we want encourage them with meaningful, restorative words. True encouragement, th...

There was a time I wondered if the handkerchief was my new found friend. I wondered whether, I could ever move from one place to the other without carrying one. The tears were many and the pain was too deep.  Today, 5 months later, I can only say only God has brought me & my family this far. I still count the days like Nov-Dec, Dec-Jan,Jan-Feb, Feb-Mar, Mar-April. Baby J, we still miss you. I have visited the grave side severally in the past few months. Brief visits and at times I have cried, at times I have just stood there, blank. Every time I do, I always have this assurance that you aint there, you are with the Lord in heaven.  I posted this on  my facebook page today- Baby J, it is 5months today. Unbelievable how time just flies by. I miss celebrating your milestones ,you would have been 6months on the 13th. But today, I decided that I shall celebrate the milestones we have made since you went to be with the Lord. I am more drawn to God my boy. I never...

I read the devotional below from Alive To God  this morning and totally agree that only at Jesus's feet, can we find mercy, grace ,love and security. Here is your word for today: Verse:             Luke 7:38 'Then she knelt behind Him at His feet, weeping. Her tears fell on His feet, and she wiped them off with her hair.' - When you don't know what to do or where to go, go to HIS feet. - Down at the feet of the Lord is the best place to be. - It is at His feet that we can find the mercy and the grace we need. - It is at His feet that we can find the help and security we long for. PRAYER:  Lord, today, I place myself at Your feet. I realize how dependent I am on You. Thank You that You will not refuse me, but You will receive me and take care of me. Amen. Have a great Thursday. Regards Pastor Andrew & Vanessa Roebert ALIVE TO GOD Email:  andrew@alivetogod.com