My Life

This morning, I woke up with much excitement and joy. I  still remember Jaden it's your 9th birthday and am excited. Over the past few weeks, I have truly come to appreciate the Seasons of Life as stated by the wisest man, King Solomon in Ecclesiastes 3.  I am content today and carry these words dearly in my heart.  Happy 9th birthday. I am who I am today because of you coming into my life. Forever in my heart. 

A few weeks ago, I attended a storytelling workshop and on the final day, we recorded our personal stories.  There is power in sharing our stories of pain and triumph. Loss is a journey and its been 9years now and hope my story can encourage another.  God Bless

  They keep going. I am proud of them because the You Tube channels was their idea, they came up with the design, names and effects. I am proud because its all self taught without coercion. I am proud because they agree on the content, schedule when to record , when and how to edit and when to upload. I love their team work even to collude to change their accents, I am proud of their talent. Kindly like and subscribe to both their channels Mass_Stars and Ecko Kids. Thank you.

 

 

This week, I have felt so unsure & uncertain about life. I have asked myself many questions and played 'what if' 'scenarios. It's not been easy but after church I asked Nate what they were taught in Sunday school and he shared the 2 Bible verses below and story of Daniel.He told me about the courage Daniel showed and how He trusted God no matter what was going on. That message was mine for sure, I am encouraged.  So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 NLT Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:5‭-‬6 NLT

This hollow feeling is back and so intense. I miss Jaden so much. Why did you choose him? Why did you allow us to meet him then take him away? The feeling is so sad..I am trying to get my footing in you..at times I feel like I will take a break and disappear just to look out for your voice in all this. Yesterday, I was craving for twins, sometimes I feel like I should be blessed with twins to payback for the loss..not really payback but just to compensate for the hurt, brokenness and emptiness. Yet I know you are God, and you have something worked out. I am thinking and fighting the feel that I need another child, yet Lord I know you at your own time will bless us..you are not a liar, to turn on your word..I know my womb is blessed..oh dear Lord, I feel like I can run through this valley, yet I hear you say, I need to walk through it..won’t you uphold me?Won’t you soothe this loneliness? What treasures are in these darkness? I recall you said in the midst of dark cloud ,you ar...