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Why I Love October

I love the month of October. 

This month has always and will always be special to me.  We were married in October and next week ,we celebrate our 10th anniversary. A few years ago, we had a successful open heart surgery for baby girl in India. 

But why I love it the more is that 6years ago, on 13th October, we were gifted with baby Jaden. Our second born baby who we eagerly waited for and loved once we held him in our hands. We thought it was obvious that he would stay with us but after 3 weeks he could not stay.

October is is the Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month.

We Remember,
the babies born sleeping,
those we carried but never held,
those we held but could not take home,
those who came home,
but could not stay.

With Jaden not staying as much as we wanted him to, we grieved deeply yet we discovered so many treasures in the dark. When our pastor preached about treasures in the dark, I wondered what he meant.6 years now, we have been able to appreciate life. When we hear a family has had a loss, we run towards them and long to be a pillar of hope.The loss could be different, but having someone walk by your side makes a great difference.We discovered great support systems from our families and friends. We learned to cherish moments and create memories. 

Thankful for this amazing month for sure.


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