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Choosing Faith Over Fear

Faith and fear cannot be in the same space. One must choose either faith or fear. I have found myself many times confronted with that choice, when a doctor says something and you choose the report of the Lord which is like swimming upstream because our default is fear or at least mine.

Over the past 3years, we had noticed Nate was breathing alot through the mouth and despite being quite active, at night he tossed quite abit and would snore so loudly. Recently baby girl complained that she can't sleep with him because he makes noise at night. We have had many visits to the doctors, trying antihistamines, saline drops, probeta just to help unblock the nose, however, we  said enough was enough when we couldn't sleep for 3 nights. Nate was sound asleep but he would seem to stop breathing for like 5secs and we would have to prop him for him to breath yet he was sound asleep. They call it sleep apea(Sleep apnea is a serious sleep disorder that occurs when a person's breathing is interrupted during sleep.)

We visited the ENT doctor and he recommend surgery to remove the adenoids and the tonsils and immediately my eyes were teary. It is not like I didn't want the surgery to make Nate comfortable (after all Samara had it 3years ago) but fear engulfed me, past memories came rushing like a flood and I knew I had to choose faith over fear. So consulted with my beloved and the surgery was scheduled for same week. 

Well, Friday 4th August came and the Lord had gone before us and was also with us. Nate was nil by mouth from 8.30 a.m with surgery expected at 2p.m, however he slept at 1p.m and we hoped surgery would be done as scheduled but theater was running late but he kept sleeping until it was time to take him to theater and only then did he ask for food.Our God is awesome isn't he? Can you imagine a hungry toddler?

The hardest thing for me, is handing over my child to the nurse for surgery, been through that 4 times and you never get used to it, neither do you think its obvious your child will return and after the handover the wait, oh the wait for 30minutes seems like forever. We went to restaurant to try and kill time but I opted to return to the room to await the call, when it would come. Finally, my mobile rang and we were told to go for him in the theater. Such great news to my ears.

So Nate is well, we can't believe he can sleep so quietly,tempted to  check if he is breathing, we were used to the loud snores that the new normal feels so different but so good. Thanking God that he gave us the strength to  choose faith over fear. May we all get the strength to choose faith when it is demanded of us.

Blessings

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