My Life

This morning a gentleman who works in same building with me asked me how the baby is and that he must be big. This guy had seen me pregnant and I had told him we got a baby boy and so he has been wondering how baby is doing. Well I looked at him and told him “I lost the baby” but we are past the hard patch. He said sorry and yes he could see indeed we are better. As I climbed up the stairs after that conversation, I said to myself,  that God is truly the healer. I recall that in January this year, I didn’t want to come back to work because of the many questions I feared would come my way and I didn’t feel I was strong enough to say Jaden rested. But today, I reflected on that conversation and told myself, God can bring one from the darkest pit. He can reach us when life doesn’t make sense and all our hopes and dreams are dashed. I saw a facebook post say that with the birth of a baby, new hopes, dreams and possibilities are birthed. And I thought that’s true and hence why ...

I have loved the month of July. I was so set for a very very cold month bearing in mind how June was. Amazingly God decided to bless us most of the days with sunshine, which I appreciated. It was actually not like July. Last week, I was dressing baby gal..she is actually not baby gal anymore she is all grown and now 3.5years. Anyways, I used some moisturizing lotion that we used used for Jaden and I was feeling lazy to reach out for her lotion and she asked" mum , that's Jaden's mafuta(oil). Why didn't Jaden go with it to heaven? I laughed and told her he didn't need the lotion in heaven as he had plenty. We finished dressing and went about our day. Am so glad we have reached a point where we can talk about Jaden and our lives move on well. Last Sunday, our friends Rosemary and Sasha visited our church with their kids and we were helping baby sit during the service. All was going well, until a couple walked with a very new born baby gal. She was so small, must ...

A few years ago, someone challenged me to be drawing lessons from movies I watch or songs I listen to. This has become a habit I have developed and I have learned so much. It also helps me determine whether a movie or program is worth my time or not. The past few weeks, we have watched a few Christian movies namely Unconditional, Second Chance and Unanswered Prayers. We watched it last night and the track song" Unanswered Prayer by Garath Brooks" was thought provoking. See the below and think of the many unanswered prayers that have become a precious gift from God. Just the other night a hometown football game My wife nd I ran into my old high school flame And as I introduced them the past came back to me And I couldn't help but think of the way things used to be She was the one that I'd wanted for all times And each night I'd spend prayin' that God would make her mine And if he'd only grant me this wish I wished back then I'd never ask for...

Today marks 8 months or 242 days since baby J rested. This morning, Samara asked whether Jaden is happy to be with God. I was very quick to state that indeed yes he is very happy to be with God in heaven because I know and have read that Jesus loves children. He has a special heart for them and am sure baby J is ok.We say he has been away for 8months and maybe sad about it but am sure he has had the best 8months with our maker. Am certain when we are sad and missing him, he feels bad for us and wishes we would rest in the fact that he is very happy and at home with his Daddy. As I took my shower this morning, I told God I would like someday to have something that will bear Jaden Josef Karega’s name. Something that will make a difference in the lives of people and that will be named Jaden Josef Karega Foundation, something that will out live us. May the Lord reveal this with time. As of today am grateful, no tears just thankful that God has carried us this far and again I s...

Happy new month to you. It feels nice to write. Am so glad its a new day and a new month. June went so fast yet it was such a mixed bag for me. I have been reading a book by Philip Yancey titled " What Good is God? Nice question to ask yourself sometimes ,especially in low moments.That past month I felt like a recovering alcoholic who had sunk back into drinking. In his book,Yancey wrote a chapter titled" How I wish I was an alcoholic". He had noted that these guys live by grace and every new day without touching alcohol was reason enough to celebrate. They celebrate God's mercies which are indeed new every morning and knew its such a thin line between forging forward or tripping. That month, I felt like I had lost my battle, I felt like I had sank back into grief but I kept saying grief &healing is not a destination. Each day God gave me reason to wake up. My theme song for the month was "10,000 reasons by Matt Redman". Indeed I shall praise the Lo...

I listened to this song and its amazing by Joyous Celebration In The Shadow lyrics( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsaQUW6zMbw ) Verse I know a place I can always run to In times of distress confusion and fear When my enemy surrounds me I know I'm safe, for you keep me And hide me in the shadow of your wings I know a place I can always run to In times of distress confusion and fear When my enemy surrounds me I know I'm safe, for you keep me And hide me in the shadow of your wings Chorus 2x In the shadow of your wings I know I am safe In the shadow of your wings I find relief, for you hold me You will hold me and guide me