My Life

On Friday, we had our monthly appointments and all is well with us.Mummy and baby are fine and now at Week 30. Feeling abit bigger and bulkier.Alex and I are in agreement that I grew overnight on a certain Tuesday. My appetite has been big for all the wrong things..pizza and ice-cream. My beloved says this has been an expensive pregnancy. The others, I ate samosas which were fairly affordable. The healthy thing I have been taking is yoghurt. So it comes as no surprise that I am now 70Kgs. I asked the doctor about it and she advised that I can eat pizza and ice-cream once a week(I smiled) and she encouraged that I snack more on fruits.  Rest is also important and she said as much as I can, I should target to lay down daytime for about 20minutes to help with oxygen circulation. On our way out, we had to go to the maternity wing to pick a document and amazingly God's grace abounded. We were last there October 15th,2012, the day we were discharged to take Jaden home after his birth...

As the one-year anniversary of Matthew's death approaches, I have been shocked by some subtle and not-so-subtle comments indicating that perhaps I should be ready to "move on." The soft, compassionate cocoon that has enveloped us for the last 11 1/2 months had lulled me into believing others would be patient with us on our grief journey, and while I’m sure many will read this and quickly say “Take all the time you need,” I’m increasingly aware that the cocoon may be in the process of collapsing. It’s understandable when you take a step back. I mean, life goes on. The thousands who supported us in the aftermath of Matthew’s suicide wept and mourned with us, prayed passionately for us, and sent an unbelievable volume of cards, letters, emails, texts, phone calls, and gifts. The support was utterly amazing. But for most, life never stopped – their world didn’t grind to a horrific, catastrophic halt on April 5, 2013. In fact, their lives have kept moving st...

We did a scan at 28weeks yesterday and it was amazing to see the little handsome boy. 12 weeks felt like so long.He is so cute, has Alex's nose and was asleep. My heart skipped a bit just to see him and I am so grateful to God for this far He has carried us.Looking forward to May 23rd. I don't like pictures on a normal day and most of all when am pregnant but my beloved took this one of me this week and baby boy has been good to me so I shall share. Happy new month. Blessings Sly