Looking back at the month of May, think it has been quite a stressful one. For real I have been eating biscuits and sugary stuff more than usual. After the death of our Pastor , am not sure I have slept fully through out the night. I find my mind straying and wondering about death and heaven. At times I have been fearful, at times my mind just won't shut.
Last night, I actually got an Aha moment. I actually thought that knowing Jaden is in heaven has given me a better perspective of heaven& eternity. I now can identify more with heaven. I have been reading and researching on heaven, I wonder who is taking care of my son and it is refreshing to know that he is in good hands with God.
In short, I feel like before Jaden passed on, I knew about heaven and hell. I knew I want to go to heaven through being born again. I have relatives who have passed on and I loved them but never quite did I long for heaven. But with Jaden gone, I have a motivation. Through his absence here, I find myself thinking about eternity and our life beyond earth. I seem to understand more deeply about God and how He loves children and how heaven is real. I imagine him playing and having a good time and almost wanting to tell me not to be sad because we shall be together some day.
So despite the sorrows, the emphasis is our relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. Do I know Him as my personal Saviour? Have I asked Him to come into my life? Do I want to spend eternity sorrounded by love and in his presence. Then I need to love him more while on earth, cultivate a deep relationship with Him and have a continuous relationship with him. I need to learn to forgive quickly and not harbour anger or bitterness.
In a way,today am seeing like my inner eyes have been opened. Am so aware of my life on earth but also life beyond here. Amazing isn't it?
Last night, I actually got an Aha moment. I actually thought that knowing Jaden is in heaven has given me a better perspective of heaven& eternity. I now can identify more with heaven. I have been reading and researching on heaven, I wonder who is taking care of my son and it is refreshing to know that he is in good hands with God.
In short, I feel like before Jaden passed on, I knew about heaven and hell. I knew I want to go to heaven through being born again. I have relatives who have passed on and I loved them but never quite did I long for heaven. But with Jaden gone, I have a motivation. Through his absence here, I find myself thinking about eternity and our life beyond earth. I seem to understand more deeply about God and how He loves children and how heaven is real. I imagine him playing and having a good time and almost wanting to tell me not to be sad because we shall be together some day.
So despite the sorrows, the emphasis is our relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. Do I know Him as my personal Saviour? Have I asked Him to come into my life? Do I want to spend eternity sorrounded by love and in his presence. Then I need to love him more while on earth, cultivate a deep relationship with Him and have a continuous relationship with him. I need to learn to forgive quickly and not harbour anger or bitterness.
In a way,today am seeing like my inner eyes have been opened. Am so aware of my life on earth but also life beyond here. Amazing isn't it?
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