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Encouragement Just For Me

The past two days have been quite hard for me. Think the past 2 weeks I have just been hearing about people passing on and I attended a friend's mum's memorial. I celebrated with the family as the lady had such a lovely testimony and she looked forward to going to receive her trophy as she saw others receiving theirs. What a reassurance for them.

 But I realised attending the memorials was taking a toll on me and I actually told Alex I shall not attend another memorial soon if I can help it.Anyways, so my mood has been not too good, actually I have been in a foul mood. I have asked Alex to pray for my peace and he has and that helped me get through the nights.

 This morning, I asked God to uplift me and shake off the sadness and I read Genesis 22(Amplified Version), thanks to my sister Emma. I read on Abraham and Isaac who had brought him much joy & laughter. When God asked Abraham to sacrifice his only son, he willing obeyed. Look at whatwas repeated twice in the same chapter...


11 But the Angel of the Lord called to him from heaven and said, Abraham, Abraham! He answered, Here I am.
12 And He said, Do not lay your hand on the lad or do anything to him; for now I know that you fear and revere God, since you have not held back from Me or begrudged giving Me your son, your only son.

I looked up the meaning of begrudge and it means "If you do not begrudge someone something, you do not feel angry,upset or jealous that they have got it". God was pleased with this attitude in Abraham . He was ready to give God even that which had brought him so much joy after he had waited for so long.

I immediately felt very encouraged and said I shall not feel angry, upset or jealous that my son is with the Most High God. I shall rejoice that he is in a happy place. It set me free this morning amazingly and I texted my beloved and told him that is my prayer, that I shall not be jealous of Jaden being in Heaven with God but shall let Him be because that is where we all long to be. I felt like my altar experience in the ICU made abit more sense.

I pray that this shall be a source of comfort to someone out there as it has carried me through this day.

Blessings

Sly

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