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6 months Already

At 6 months babies celebrate major milestones.They sit ,wean and look all cute. This Friday, it shall be 6months since we held Jaden. Somehow my mind doesn't allow me to imagine how he would be looking at 7months. Guess God allowed my mind to handle the 4 Saturdays he gave Jaden to us and am content. I have been privileged to talk to women who either miscarried or lost their babies immediately after birth. I am grateful for the sweet memories and Joy Jaden brought to our lives for the time we were together. Short yes but precious times.


Didn't know what to write today but I wanted to  note that:-
  1. I have come to know God is very real and is  near. He touches where it hurts and soothes the pains.
  2. Each day has become more bearable.Some days pass and I do not think about about my loss.
  3. I hardly hear the baby next door cry nor do I notice his clothes hang outside as I used to.
  4. Samara had stopped to ask about her brother but last week she did and we talked about Jaden.
  5. It shall be one year soon and I have been wondering what to do either on his one year birthday or one year memorial, they are just one month apart.
Prayer
Dear Lord, thank you for your great love for me. Thank you for blessing my womb twice and blessing me with amazing and beautiful children. Each day I wake up , I know am blessed to be alive and breathing. I now realise that pregnancy takes the Hand of God and holding a baby in ones arms is a great honour.

Thank you for allowing me to be a mum to Samara who is now 3years and 4months and having allowed me to be a mum to Jaden, who is now with you. I am blessed because through them, I have drawn closer to you. Through the storms with these two blessings, I have experienced your great love and faithfulness. Through Samara's smiles,hugs, kisses and I love you mummy,I am reminded of your love towards me. She is always a timely voice that constantly reminds me that you are close by.

So today, 6 months later, am thankful for all and say you still are my Rock and in You I am safe. In Jesus name I have prayed.

Amen

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Unknown said…
It is well.
Unknown said…
Been a while reading your blogs!!

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