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The Beginning of Grief Journey

I am not sure where to start in this blog. There is so much to say and I will say it with time. I just want to say that God blessed us with a lovely handsome son on 13th October 2012. He was such a joy to us, family and friends. Jaden was very peaceful, he would just breastfeed, sleep sometimes, at times he would just want to be put down and stay awake.

Baby gal was very  proud to be a big sister, she was all over her brother. Infact her new name in school was"big sister". Every time Jaden would cry or turn she would rush to peep and check whether he was awake..Every time she tried to carry him, she always leaned very close to him, giving him a kiss. It was so nice to see them both together. I shall share pictures of them soonest.

Baby J had a small blockage in his aorta ..vessel that carries blood to the rest of the body and he needed a closed heart surgery. His surgery went well  on Thursday 8th 2012 and he was taken to ICU for observation and on Saturday, after we had spent most of the day with him, singing and just loving him..we stepped out for half hour and next we knew we received a call from ICU that things were not good.For about 2 hours the doctors and ICU staff tried to resuscitate him but baby rested the evening of 10th November.We held funeral on 13th November, baby J would have been 1 month that day. .

It has been God who has carried us through this season..I have kept asking Him to carry me and hold me because it is not easy but am so glad I belong to God. If I didnt know God am not sure how we would handle this because hard as it may sound, we believe as a family that baby Jaden lived his full life from conception to 10th November.

We appreciate our friends, family, the new friends we have got since we were admitted to the hospital. God has surely used them to hold our hands, they have given us their shoulders to cry on, they have taken care of baby gal like their own and am grateful..

Comments

Ems Makuthi said…
You are brave woman sly..that's all i can say for now, one look at you and for sure, there is a God in heaven!!!! i knew grace but when i look at you, i know grace all the more...
16 November 2012 at 10:24
Esther Mutie said…
My heart goes out to you&your family, even in this difficult time. I have tried to comprehend but this Scripture tugs at my heart and helps me leave it all at His throne. May His peace that surely surpasses all understanding, comfort you all.
Love,Mesh.
17 November 2012 at 02:28
waitingarms said…
I am so very sorry about the loss of your precious son Jaden. May the Lord's supernatural peace flood your hearts and may He surround you with His vessels who will walk along side your family standing in the gap.
17 November 2012 at 06:30
Kageha said…
My sister, God is the only one who can carry you thru this. You are strong and that strength is what I am drawing from.
17 November 2012 at 20:24
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