My Life

Hi, Marriage missions website and its rich resources on all things relationships has been a resource to me. I have shared a link  https://marriagemissions.com/grieving-death-child/  on grieving a child. It leads to so many more articles and videos. Blessings Sly

Hi friend, It's been so long since I dropped by, but I hope that I can write more often. I have been well and blessed to journey with friends through life. It is almost 6years in November, since Jaden rested and I look back now and think I have a little clue to 'my  why me questions'  which I desperately sort answers. You see, when in pain, it is hard to see, hear or believe the answers to our questions. Would it make sense when in pain to hear that your loss would help you encourage others? It would seem ridiculous, unfair or not make sense at all. I totally feel you, I was there too. 6 years down the line, the pain is not intense as it was 6years ago. The loss has made me more human to say the least. I rush towards those mum's that experience loss. Things I took for granted like pregnancy, healthy babies and life are never obvious for me. All these are gifts and blessings from God. So yes today may hurt, tomorrow also but with time you get to see a clearer p...

August 17th 2017 Happy birthday to me today. I am 37years old and so excited about it.Don't remember being this excited as I stand in awe of the Lord who created me. My life has been an amazing journey and I would never have thought I would be who I am today, not in my wildest dreams. Almost 40years(4th floor as we call it), I think when you are 16 years you think you will never reach here but I have no regrets, thankful for my blessings and naming them one by one. So blessed to have Alex, to have mothered 3beautiful children, to be a friend who loves and is loved back by many I have much to be thankful for. Looking forward to a great year of purpose, pursuing what I love..relationships and people. Talking, sharing , positively influencing those I interact with  and sharing God's love with them. May the Lord help me.Amen Thankful Sylvia

Faith and fear cannot be in the same space. One must choose either faith or fear. I have found myself many times confronted with that choice, when a doctor says something and you choose the report of the Lord which is like swimming upstream because our default is fear or at least mine. Over the past 3years, we had noticed Nate was breathing alot through the mouth and despite being quite active, at night he tossed quite abit and would snore so loudly. Recently baby girl complained that she can't sleep with him because he makes noise at night. We have had many visits to the doctors, trying antihistamines, saline drops, probeta just to help unblock the nose, however, we  said enough was enough when we couldn't sleep for 3 nights. Nate was sound asleep but he would seem to stop breathing for like 5secs and we would have to prop him for him to breath yet he was sound asleep. They call it sleep apea( Sleep apnea is a serious sleep disorder that occurs when a person's breathin...

He is 3years today, what an amazing journey this has been. God is faithful,even after the darkness there is light , there is hope,there is healing and joy cometh after the sorrow.This morning as I drove to work, I just sat in the car and cried, tears of joy, tears of how God has been great and faithful. Nate is a blessing to me and our entire blessings. Children born after the loss of another are called rainbow babies, not sure why but the rainbow is beautiful, you never look at the rainbow and your heart isn't warmed. The rainbow was also a covenant from God. Am thankful for Nate, this handsome boy tells you thank you many times, appreciates every little thing you do, he appreciates and complements when you go to salon,he hugs and demands to be listened too.He is sensitive yet so loving. A blessing, a real blessing. May you be encouraged today.

I have always looked at life as a journey because there is never a time you can say you have reached your destination.Yes you may have milestones but a final destination am not sure that is possible. This morning as I walked from Nairobi Hospital, I thought to myself  that it has been almost 5years since Jaden passed on in the very hospital.I told myself that despite God being a healer of our broken hearts,  things I  thought were obvious like visiting patients in hospital are not automatic. It takes strength and God to help me walk into some of these places, despite the number of years that have gone by. The initial years after loss, I didn't even want to walk or drive past that hospital, with time there were wards I would go to and some I wouldn't go to date. My girlfriend is admitted in a female ward  and I have been visiting her with no issues.However, she needed a surgical procedure and was to be in HDU after surgery for observation then go back to the ward....

The other day, Nate and I went to see a friend's newborn baby. When we got home, Samara asked whether the baby was a boy or girl. So I said its a boy and she said" so auntie is a mum of three boys and you mummy are a mum to 1 girl and 2 boys" and moved on with her life. Oh, that warmed my heart, that Samara knows that I am a mother of three, how amazing is that. Even when Jaden is not here she remembers him and still counts him as a sibling, it really warmed my heart. At the beginning of the year after church, as we drank tea with a friend,another lady came and suggested that I should get baby number 3, I quickly told her am ok with the 2 God has given me. My friend quickly added that after all there is no pressure, am already a mum of three and that also quietened my heart. I appreciated that she also viewed me as a mum of three. I guess you wondering where am going with all this but I just wanted to show that the pressure is real and constant reminders that you are ...