My Life

We were invited for a birthday party last Friday and we had a great time. At least I can upload this pictures unlike the audio referred to in the other blog, Enjoy

I am totally surprised that the last I wrote was in November. Allow me to send greetings your way for the New Year. 2016 will be an amazingly great year and am looking forward to it. Yesterday, 4th February 2016 Alex and I had the privilege to go to Radio 316 and share our story and journey of life after the loss of Jaden. A friend was gracious enough to dub the show live and that allowed us to share with many and also allowed us to listen to ourselves and see how far the Lord has brought us. I am not able to upload the audio here We are thankful

Jaden,its so hard this third year.I miss you terribly.Today,I found myself asking God to give you back to us.Sounds crazy, sounds like am going back to grieving the initial days when I wanted you given back to us. I take Nate to Sunday school and in his class the other day, there was a Jaden and his name was just written like our Jaden's. At some point, the boy hit Nate and he apologised by giving Nate a hug and my heart melted and ran wild wishing, hoping that our Jaden was here with us. I pray for grace, I pray for strength for me, for Alex and all of us.May He strengthen me, may He strengthen us all. Miss you loads

The boy is 17months today. He has totally grown. Yesterday,he was bought a ball, a big one. I have never seen Nate hang on to an item like that, he would hold it with one hand and play with the other. I guess it was very dear to him.

Yesterday we attended baby girl's Christmas Concert in school. I had asked her what her role will be and she said she was the narrator of the Christmas story and I laughed. I told her am so proud of her and that I laughed because when we did the Christmas story when I was in nursery, I was no where near the narrator I was a masked sheep. We had a good laugh that day as we drove home. I thought to myself, how life has changed and how we need to provide our kids with opportunities to learn and build their confidence.We need to applaud our kids, tell them how beautiful they are, tell them how talented they are. Let them grow up knowing their strengths and areas they need to improve. That is my heart's desire for our kids. Let them be exposed to life's opportunities. Samara turns 6 in January and is reading well and communicates very articulately in English. When I was her age, we had just moved to Nairobi and the language I knew best was Kiswahili and I was just lea...

Nate has really grown. Never in my mind did I think I would write how he has tantrums, serious ones which he drops himself on the floor, cries alot and very clear about what he wants. So the other day, we are sitted and he decides to drop his wipes and diaper on the carpet. I request him to pick them up and give me and he throws a fit and goes in full blown crying.So he tries to run to his aunty and I tell her no, he needs to learn to obey. All this time he is charged up and really crying and tries to get refuge with Samara and I tell her no he has to learn to obey. The young guy cried and cried. So I allowed him to keep quiet and reminded them that the diaper and wipes are for him to pick. Do you know he would stroll by them deliberately and when you tell him to pick he would say NO and even shake his finger to emphasise his no. I just thought to myself indeed folly is in the heart and the rod is needed to take it away. After a while , I asked him to pick and give to me he refused...

The month of October and November are such bitter sweet months for my tender heart. October, we celebrate so so much..we have our wedding anniversary, celebrate Samara's successful heart surgery that was done many years ago, celebrate Jaden's birth and celebrate our business anniversary i November. Yet in same breath, I need extra  extra grace and strength from God to overcome the underlying emotions of missing Jaden. He features so much on my head and in my heart during this season because he was born in October and rested in November. Many questions ran in my mind,many mixed emotions I feel not all the time but sometimes and I acknowledge that God takes me through each day. I miss you Jaden so much.