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Am hollow today

Am already missing him and its hardly a few hours since he left. When we were dating, I got him a cup which was hollow inside and it said "am hollow without you". Sometimes that is the feeling I get when he is away. My beloved had to travel early this morning and will return God willing on Sunday. We sure do miss him when he is away.

Samara keeps saying" Daddy" over and over again and how do I explain to her that daddy has traveled for business and will return after 2 or 3 days? It is like she knows and at times she will hear the neighbours door being opened and she rushes to the door or looks at me and says"daddy".Then I have to tell her no that is not daddy, daddy left for work.

All in all, I miss him because he makes my life complete, at least I have something to look forward to in the evenings, he comes home, we catch up on the day's events and just bond as friends. When he is away,I get home, sometimes we go out with Samara for hot chocolate& window shopping, get home, eat, wash her and both sleep early, so that the nights become shorter and the days rush as we wait for him to return.

While he is away, I get to appreciate Alex and the things he does in the home which I don't have to bother about like, has main door been locked before we sleep,changing Samara's morning diaper and most of all I miss the sense of security he provides in the home. Believe it or not, there is some safety I feel when he is home, in his absence its different. I miss the breakfast we share every morning and the time we share as a family during the weekends. Oh, when Sunday arrives, am always so tempted to sleep in why? Because when he is there, he helps me with Samara in church, when I am alone, the drive to our church seems so far and when we get there, I have to entertain Samara through out and ensure she doesn't make much of a fuss (our church is not too big) and therefore most times I am physically present but I hardly hear much. Now you understand why I say am hollow.

So long story short, babe am missing you and am sure when evening comes Samara will realize daddy ain't coming home and she will miss you too. So wish you well in the relaunch of the Maasai Radio in Narok, am so proud of you and how you handle it so well, I know it will be a success. But when it's done and the 2 day roadshows are done, please hurry back to us.



Have a good day to you all.

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