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 Our 10year old is a creative. The things she does, amaze us. Look what she compiled this morning, sweet memories of my 40th birthday. How can I enhance this talent?It is graphic design, to fashion design, to photography to music and dance. Any leads and mentors are welcome. 

 What a beautiful day this was. We agreed to introduce the children to Jaden because 2weeks ago I had the opportunity to share about loss on TV and on same week, I had a zoom session sharing on our marriage journey and loss. I did the zoom from our home and was fearful that Nate would stumble into our story of loss before we tell him yet we strive to be the first voice and to process issues together. Baby girl was young too and we talked about Jaden but after Nate was born and a bit older, we never discussed despite her being tempted once to tell Nate about Jaden and I told her he wasn't ready then. I was blessed that my beloved was in agreement that it's time and day was today.   Jaden passed on when Samara was 2years 11 months on November 10th,2012 and of course Nate was born 2years later. We got the photo album that we have of Jaden, a toy car I kept and a portrait that we used for his funeral. We didn't know how to start and after dinner, Alex in his wisdom (a God ide...

Last night as I prepared to share on loss& grief in relation to marriage, I was overwhelmed by emotions. Through our pain, we are able to reach out to other hurting families. Indeed God's ways are not ours but if we can just b used  as vessels of honour for God's kingdom then it's not wasted the pain is not wasted.

The past week has been a different kind. I have been privileged to share our loss journey on TV and this morning on 'a peek into a grieving heart platform. This song beauty for ashes seems to sum it all up. 

Who would have thought that after the loss of Jaden, God would use our pain to reach out to others who are hurting? It was humbling this morning to share our story with young people on Y254.  All glory to God. Sylvia

Introducing -  A PEEK INTO A GRIEVING HEART The TEARS Foundation, Kenya, has been trying to break the silence associated with child loss grief  among our communities  (pregnancy loss, stillbirth & infants/children death). There is a silent rule that these are not losses worthy grieving or talking about: when you do, you should “move with speed” and “move on” as if nothing happened. We know this silence coupled with societal attitudes has pushed families to dark pits. Siblings included. There is nothing as harmful as unacknowledged loss-unsupported/disenfranchised grief. Let us have this conversation. We have many issues eating into the fabric of our society, this is one of them - unacknowledged loss-unsupported/disenfranchised grief. We now have a forum, thought through since December 2019. It is time to bring it from the back burners. Invited speakers will help us  Peek Into A Grieving Heart after a child dies. Bring all your families and friends to ...

This afternoon, I had a delivery in Lang'ata and purposed to pass by Jaden's grave. It had been a long while since I visited, but as I walked towards the grave, I was met with blooming yellow flowers that really warmed my heart. I had come with an agenda, I wanted to change the flowers around the grave and thankfully had Gitua who cleans and ensures the place is presentable give me a tour around the cemetery to showcase his work. I was amused within me, the things we do as a result of loss are strange yet have become normal to us.  After about an hour, I had picked a few yellow flowers put them carefully on the back seat and drove home in comoftable silence. No tears, no sad emotions just gratitude but it has been almost 8 years this November 2020.